I just had a major revelation today.

I have been studying with witch school for several years. I picked the school because it was the only school that was well structured with mentors and let you actually get your clergy status if you wanted. http://www.correllian.com/index.htm

I have to admit I have been doing it at such a slow pace because much of my free time has been taken up with paranormal studies. Also, I have been doing a lot of personal journaling and shamanic dream work. I have beendoing a lot of great growth on a spiritual level for the past several years.

This came to a halt last year when I got the flu. I also got encephalitis and since then I have had severe neuroglial effects and migraines to the point of not being able to drive, shop and barely to keep my job. It has made life a challenge because it has created interesting aura effects of light that make my physical observations of paranormal activity not usable - I can only use what I physically record. It has, however, seemed to make me a lot more sensitive and more of a conduit, though, so I can really pick up thoughts, so it is a mixed blessing. I can always go to the where the action is going to happen, which can be useful.

I came to the realization that I need to get my clergy status so I can do full blown clearings and blessings. I have reached the spiritual point in my life where the I need to merge them into a full time path. I need to help other people. Life is making it impossible for me to do the other things in life for a reason - it is a path that is wrong for me to be on. If I am to be healthy, I need to be on the other path.


MY guides frequently tell me that when I am stronger physically and I am farther along on my path with a clergy status along with legal liability protections afforded with the type of thing you can do with that I will be able to set up a practice that will allow me to do exorcisms.

One of the many ways to start on a shamanic path is to have a near death experience. This is how I started on mine. This, along with dream walking and astral projecting naturally my entire life starting me along the path the path early on.

It took me many years to recognize the path as I did not have a parent to teach me about the shaman ways or to recognize what road lifes journey had taken me down. The path of a shaman can be wonderful and bright. Without a spiritual teacher in real life, the spiritual guides and totems can be harder to hear when you are taught to be closed minded to the guides trying to help you along your path.

I did not grow up in the southwest where I could learn about the ways of the native American shaman for many years. I had tales of my grandmother being native American, but I did not grow up with my biological grandmother, so I had no first hand knowledge of what this meant. My adopted brother was native Alaskan he had no elders to teach him the ways of his tribes. He had no desire to learn, but I felt a great desire to go and learn for him and bring back the teachings for him when we were small children.

I finally came across Celtic shaman teachings as an adult.

First, a definition.

The word 'Shaman,' is actually a Tungus (Siberian) word for a spiritual practice that is as old as mankind, and is still practiced by indigenous people, as well as modern practitioners worldwide. Shamanism is not rooted in any organized religious tradition, but is instead a system of controlled visionary journeys into alternate realities (and back,) in order to contact spirit guides and gain their assistance in divination and healing.

When one thinks of traditional shamans and shamanism, its easy to envision a Native (American or perhaps Aboriginal) medicine man performing rituals that are deeply rooted in cultural tribal traditions. It is important to note that the ancient Celts were also believed to have practiced shamanism, and have left many clues to their rituals and spiritual journeys in the stories of Taliesin, Fionn mac Cumhail, and Amergin.

This has helped me to discover the path of the shaman. It would have been much easier to have been born into an indigenous culture that understood the shaman path. In many indigenous tribes the Acute Sensitive would be under the instruction of the Medicine woman or shamaness. The Shaman's role is to assist the sensitive in working within the spirit world. In some cases the Shaman may perform a type of exorcism to discharge the discarnate entities surrounding the person in crisis. It is understood that the key problem is the fragmentation of the core self (the central seat of the soul).

The villagers would take care of their needs, as they were not able to perform their normal tasks. Food, clothing, and shelter would be provided by the community and slowly, slowly, the sensitive would be given guidance by the shaman to walk in the world of spirit without coming to any harm. They recognized that there is more than one dimension where both light and dark beings reside. The lesson is to not stop the voices so much as work with them in a way that you are in the control seat rather than being controlled by the energies tormenting you.

The words shaman and shamanism can bring up irritation and resistance and sometimes anger in some Native Americans. I don't claim to be a Native American by heritage.

I can tell you that this a very difficult path without teachers and support and understanding from your own community.

Last Night I did a guided meditation "Meet Your Power Animal A Drumming Journey"

This was my firt meditation CD with drumming. I cannot say enough how WONDERFUL and how much the drumming helped! 





 
only place so far I found the cd

First let me say, I always just assumeed my totem was either Frog - because I was born on leapy year- everyone always gave me frogs, so I have stone frogs and frogs all over - or Crow - because they are so common in my area and frequently speak to me and bring me feathers and messages - or moths - for the same reason.

I also realize that you can have lifetime totems and you can have totem guides that come to you in momements of need, so I thought it was time for me to do some further investigation.


My first thought as I was starting was "watch it be something I never suspected, like a badger" I used to draw badgers when I lived in England. Badger was a character in Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe and in the Beatrice Potter Books I used to read when I was small. We grew up in the area the latter books were based on, so the characters were a large part of my childhoold.


Through the meditation, I met up with Badger several times. I then fell asleep.


I learned two an important lesson.


1- never do a medition CD with a migraine after taking migraine meditation
2- I need to learn to control my inner badger.


So, I don't know what badger means to me. I can tell you when my husband read the description, he laughed his ass off and said it described my nature to a T in a way that none of the other totems I have investigated ever have. He says I need to learn to control my inner badger.





BADGER

Cunning badger of the forest,
Guide me to wisdom, truth and light.
All injustices against me,
Wipe clean the slate and set them right.

The power of the Badger totem is its aggressiveness and the willingness to fight for what it wants.
This aggression can also be turned to healing - for Badger is the keeper of Earth's healing herbs. 

Badger people are quick to express their feelings with concern for the consequences.
They are often healers who have the courage to use unconventional methods. Badger has the ability to persist to find a cure.

Badger people are often leaders and bosses, the one who will get the job done. If you have a Badger as a totem, you will likely be solitary but comfortable being alone. You are comfortable within yourself and very self-reliant.

Badger anger can get your out of apathy, but be careful not to cut yourself (or others) to ribbons using. Badger is a powerful totem when used properly.


The Badger
Badger medicine is a tough one to carry. If it is not balanced with deer, it can result in a sad, lonely and alone life - but badger would never admit it. If badger perceives a wrong has been done him, he will follow you to the ends of the earth to get his revenge. If he gets a grip on you, or gets you cornered, he will tear you to shreds. There is no mercy in badger for he cares for no one except himself. Badger is the power monger; the control freak. He is the mark of aggressiveness carried to the extreme.

 

The Badger
The badger is a member of the weasel family. They range is length from two to three feet and are about twelve inches high. Family members often mark each other with scent for recognition since their sight is poor. Their senses of smell and hearing however are excellent. Those with this medicine would do well in professions that incorporate sound as a healing tool. On a personal note, badger medicine people need to develop clear sight, both psychically and physically and not just rely on their other senses for survival.
Badgers have solid muscular bodies. Its outer skin is loose which gives it a deceiving appearance. Because of this it is often associated with illusion. What you see is not always what you get! Its strong powerful jaws represent discrimination of speech. Words can cut, tear and crush or encourage, teach and compliment others. Those with this medicine have the ability to do both.
Badger dens are extremely clean and well organized. They change there bedding often, backing into their dens with straw, so as not to make a mess in the process. Fastidious about their surroundings they will correct any disorder quickly.
The badger brings the gift of tidiness and organization. If badger has come to you in some way it may be saying that you need to concentrate on maintaining an orderly environment to better facilitate your day-to-day living. . It can also teach you how to manage your time more efficiently.
Badgers will fight to their death if cornered. Bold and ferocious they are unsociable animals. Those with this medicine have difficulty relating to others. They will shun authority and stand their ground in any situation. Expressing themselves in a concise balanced way is one of their greatest challenges.
The badger is a remarkable digger and can get beneath the surface easily. This ability ties the badger to the mysteries of the underworld, where the magic of life and creation is stored. It also symbolizes a strong connection to plant and animal spirits and can teach those with this totem how to align with life both above ground and below it.

I have been doing a lot of mediating on the astral feeder on the back of my neck. I also have several friends and a separate circle doing the same. They do not know each other and I keep the info separate and I have not been posting until now to not influence the information.

All of them came and myself relate the entity and the illness as trying to stop my advancment partly towards strengthening spiritually as a teacher, but mostly towards preventing me from being a guardian of the gates or the portals.

I have to run, but I had a very significant dream after I realized and accepted this to be true last night. It is going to take a long time to post the dream with the owl, but it will clarify how important this work is.

I had dreams of Dravite last night and I got an email from a place I order from they have some at a good price. 

They also have scolecite tumbles at a really great price. Both stones are very hard to find- impossible locally.  Hopefull they will still have some stock in a couple of weeks.    It always amazes me when the higher mind can pick up what I need and point me in the right direction. I am sure my spirit guides are helping.

http://pelhamgrayson.safeshopper.com/6/519.htm?972

Dravite is a brown-hued variety of Tourmaline that pairs the purifying energies of Black Tourmaline with the heart-healing energy of Green Tourmaline. It can help one lovingly identify what needs to be released before further growth can occur. Dravite aids in finding an emotional strength and sense of self-acceptance, initiating deep healing for those who have experienced emotional trauma. Its grounding influence helps those who feel overwhelmed release panic and begin to find a place of calm from which to approach life. It helps one to see what has been denied, so emotional healing can occur. Dravite's energy lends one a sense of well-being and competence.

Mom is coming over in a minute and we are going to the vet with Spike. I will update when I get back.


I realized why this is a little harder than I expected because my dog is a senior gal and has started having trouble getting around. At 70 pounds, it is a little tricky by mself to get her boosted up, but we manage. She is patient and I am stubborn. I am sure we look a bit silly sometimes, though. Dad is going to help me shorten my bed so she won't hurt herself trying to get up. This will help a lot.

My other two cats are also 15 plus years. They are fine, but I was bracing myself over the past couple of years for losing the dog and the older cats, and Spike helping me through. I never expected to lose the baby first.

I am taking my favorite shirt in the carrier. It is also Spikes favorite shirt. I don't know if they will creamate the shirt with him, but I am going to see if they can. I don't know if this is what will happen, but I have a feeling that if not today, it will be soon.

Little Spike is such a tough little guy. He carries on, follows me around, but he is so thin it pains me to see him. I am pretty sure he is putting on a tough face for me, and me for him. He does not exhibit any of the signs the vet told me to watch for to indicate he is uncomfortable, though. I just keep watching him fall asleep and I am always a little surprised that he manages to wake up again.

I know this sounds a little strange, but I really do feel I have learned so much from Spike and I am grateful for the short time he was with me. I just hope he feels the same way in is little kitty manner. A friend called me yesterday to ask me if spike was visiting me from the other side. I said not yet, but she seems convinced he will. He is too strong of a familiar not to check in - either through dreams or through spirit presence. She has a cat spirit that she picked up recently through a haunted object. This is a VERY long tale I will tell later on when I have more time. It relates to another paranaormal group, but one of the girls in it who, I do not feel comfortable with, so it will be friends only. I know, I have been very lax in posting. I have a very strange tree/spider dream last night as well I am going to post later. It will be therapeutic. Now that I think about it, it does include some folks from the other paranormal group that I like,and some folks from the fairies circle group, and my friend who called though. I just realized that. That puts some of the players into place.

Grandma also was telling me her dog scooter often visited and even slept on the bed with her somtimes.

Well, I am babbling to distract myeslf, so I am going to go for now.

And no worries, I am fine. Just finding it hard to maintain an outflow of peace and love and strength for Spike this morning. Truly this is good practice and is making me stronger, though. Something else to be gratefule for.

I was at a conference type event with my coworkers. This was a regional meeting, so the room was full of 1200 folks or so. We were off site in a conference room that was white and filled with light. The light had the warm glow the sun flowing in through a window and lighting up the dust motes like they were dancing fairies.

We were seated around tables, and the speaker walked into the room. He made a dramatic entrance wearing white flowing robes and had long hair. I could tell this was not the normal motivational speaker we were forced to endure upon occasion. He was accompanied by several assistants garbed in similar flowing garments.

Around the presenters I noticed a few beings of light dancing around. They were very airy and did not seem to touch the ground. They had ribbons of coloured light streaming from their hair and bodies that swirled and swayed around them.

The presenters had brought a kirilian camera that photographs the auric field. They were taking polaroid pics of folks around them room quickly and setting them down on the table. They mostly just smiled and made small comments like, look at all the healing green in your aura.

The main speaker approaced me and snapped a picture. He looked at it, and took another picture of my shoulder. He looked closely at the picture and took several more pictures, stepping back and from a variety of angles. One of the assistants came close and the speaker muttered entities and gave him the photographs. The speaker then plastered on a smile and proceeded to the next table.

The assistant was joined by several dancing beings and asked me to go into a small room. A few other folks were in the room. They were asking questions of the assistants but they seemed to be ignoring the dancers. I suddenly realized I was the only once who could see the dancers. One of them caught my eye and smiled at me and winked.

I started to notice the questioners had entities in their aura pictures. The presenters were handing out pamphlets on exorcism and white sage bundles. One woman asked if she only had one entity or if it was possible to have more than one or two at a time. He turned away from me and told the woman she only had one, and told her that it used to be thought that you could only have one entity within you at any one time. He walked away to another. It was clear to me he did not want to catch my eye.

Another asked the presenter what they meant by entity. He seemed to be listening to one the dancers, and then he replied:“By an entity, we are referring here to energy based beings that take up residence within people. Most entities are created by humans, usually unconsciously. Thoughts are things, they are energy and energy and matter are one. So any thought that is fed emotional energy gets bigger and more powerful. What you focus on, will grow: this is the power of free will, and the essence of all prayer, spell casting and the root of much mental illness.”

I looked at the speaker, and he appeared to be part itinerant and part dancing being. I cocked my head and was going to ask one of the beings of light why this was so, and it shook its head and put its finger to its mouth. It then flowed to me, took my hand and looked into my eyes. I heard him in my head. He explained the presenters were once itinerants and folks who were tried to commit suicide. At the point of death, the original soul left the body. In its place, one of the beings of light took the place of the prior soul. They were ‘walk-ins’ who took up residence to complete an important task. The beings of light assisted these new walk-ins.

The presenter continued his explanation of how to clear the entities.
“The simplest way to clear entities, is simply to ask your Guardian angels, or whatever you put faith in, to take them into the Light. If you have faith, this is enough. Most people do not have faith... so here is a more "hands on" method that is completely effective.”

The presenter started leading the group through a visulization to clear the entitities from their aura. He then told the entities “Transmute into light. Archangels back up my intentions.”
(Think of the column of light above your head, to show it where to go.. and it will.
Originally, they were made of light, came from light. and they happily go back there once they have been reminded that they have the option. They transmute when given permission by your free will.

The being of light gazed again into my mind. I could see my aura, expanding out about 5 feet from my body. At the outer edges, dark shadows and daemons were lurking. They occasionally would prod, looking for a weakness in the edge of my energy.
Within the outer atmosphere, small beings of light flicker up when the outer critters are looking for weakness. Their light seems to tickle feels like the tingles of a limb that has fallen asleep. I feel this sensation sometimes when I sleep. In my dreams, it feels like a hot rain, and was a warning that someone was trying to break through my shields.

I can also see a large being of light above me, feeding energy and light in through the top of my head. The energy feeds my aura, giving strength to the tiny beings of light warding off the attacks. I can see several figures around, outside of my aura. They are faceless, but bright and beautiful. I sense these are spirit guides, ancestral guides and totems. Not all of them are humanoid. Before I can make them out clearly, they fade back again.

I also see a dark, oily shadow. He seems particularly sinister. He touches the edge of my energy field, and the area seems to fade a little. When he notices I sense him, he slinks back into the background as well.

I notice an area of darkness within my energy field. It seems a little heavy and grey. Around the area, the energy gets brighter. It reminds me of an oyster slowly surrounding a grain a sand and creating a pearl. The colors were more opalescent and milky, but seemed to healing the surrounding area, protecting it from the darker mass.

The presenter turns to me and tells me that he cannot exorcize the entities that are attached to my aura. He said they are not possessing me, but are attempting to do so I need to be vigilant and strong. He said the brighter and stronger my soul light and energy becomes, the more I will attract astral critters and demons of the spiritual and physical world alike. I need to stay firmly on my path of growth.

He hands me a rose and a picture of my aura. I cannot see myself at all in the picture. The picture is just a bright white light.

I found out there are Red Wolves in VA, but it is the most endangered species in North America. I don’t know what is more miraculous – having a wolf spirit guide /totem visit me or seeing an actual red wolf. Either way, I feel very blessed.



http://www.thevlm.org/teacherscorner/onlineresources/animals.php

Here is my soul reading from  copperbeech
08082006

Kristine

Initially I am led to a small puddle of water and I see a young girl about 9 playing in it with a stick. Seconds later I see her sucked down into the puddle, as am I. “Dowh the rabbit hole,” comes to mind. The way down feels like when Dorothy is being taken up in the cyclone—all these random scenes of faerietale characters, fantastic creatures and landscapes spiral by. My sense of this is that Kristine’s nature and childhood was very tuned into this unseen aspect of mundane life. It’s a bit scary returning to it from a linear mind, but as a child it wasn’t scary at all. It was Life, and this child aspect of her that I am traveling with is remembering. These specific scenes are familiar to her, though to me they just are a random collection of amazing perceptions. But I think she is remembering things she experienced as a child, of the supernatural and deeper spiritual variety. I feel that Kristine reached a point in her life that she felt she had to choose between the two ways of perceiving, leaving her unable to reconcile the peace of her other kind of knowing with the mundane experiences and “rules.”

I walk along as her ally through this faerietale world that we come out in. She becomes more and more calm as we walk, seemingly remembering her place among these very elevated experiences of her childhood. She begins to tell about each one. Some of them are not experiences that she had but just creatures who are coming to her in this present time, but she can etherically communicate with them and relay their information to me. She is very in tune with being able to know what their perspectives are, what they see and want. After we have walked for a while she turns to me and says, “I have wanted to remember this.” I feel like she is referring to a lot of things in this statement—the ability to communicate in this way, the remembrance that this strata of existence is even there, her own affinity and place within that other realm of being…