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Many have switched to CFLs (compact fluorescent lamps) in these challenging economic times simply to save money. However no public education at all has been given about how to safely dispose of broken bulbs to avoid mercury contamination, and it seems unavoidable that there will be seepage from garbage tips into groundwater in years to come that will affect water supplies – a disaster waiting to happen.
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I have been studying with witch school for several years. I picked the school because it was the only school that was well structured with mentors and let you actually get your clergy status if you wanted. http://www.correllian.com/index.htm
I have to admit I have been doing it at such a slow pace because much of my free time has been taken up with paranormal studies. Also, I have been doing a lot of personal journaling and shamanic dream work. I have beendoing a lot of great growth on a spiritual level for the past several years.
This came to a halt last year when I got the flu. I also got encephalitis and since then I have had severe neuroglial effects and migraines to the point of not being able to drive, shop and barely to keep my job. It has made life a challenge because it has created interesting aura effects of light that make my physical observations of paranormal activity not usable - I can only use what I physically record. It has, however, seemed to make me a lot more sensitive and more of a conduit, though, so I can really pick up thoughts, so it is a mixed blessing. I can always go to the where the action is going to happen, which can be useful.
I came to the realization that I need to get my clergy status so I can do full blown clearings and blessings. I have reached the spiritual point in my life where the I need to merge them into a full time path. I need to help other people. Life is making it impossible for me to do the other things in life for a reason - it is a path that is wrong for me to be on. If I am to be healthy, I need to be on the other path.
MY guides frequently tell me that when I am stronger physically and I am farther along on my path with a clergy status along with legal liability protections afforded with the type of thing you can do with that I will be able to set up a practice that will allow me to do exorcisms.
Also, Arizona is the land of the sun. What does that mean to my migraines. But, it also means no allergies. Is that better? I have trouble with mirgraines with allergies. Maybe it is better to to move and have no allergy medication.
Of course the housing market means we cant do anything for a couple of years. Also I cant transfer jobs for a couple of years until my health improve enough for my job to be willing to transfer me, too.
Then again, maybe I need a fresh start.
So many paths.
I had hoped a diagnosis would have cured me. At least have made things better.
I have to be patient. Positive. It is hard to be light hearted when the light hurts. I spend most of my time with my four dogs. They love me and are always happy. They are light hearted and full of love.
My husband has been drinking this for a week now and he has been insanely energetic. He really feels a lot better. He is using the frozen unsweetened acai smoothie packs and and adding other fresh berries. We are on a raw foods diet for my migraines to see if that helps. It is helping him feel very good.
It is great for him, but I am still so dizzy. They changed my meds again. I call my doctor tomorow morning to see when I can go back to work. Soon, I really hope.
I have scarring from the inflammation but it should hopefully improve over time.
I can cut out 4 neds and replace it with one. The doc says it should not be too bad but it may take a week to adjust off the old meds. I was on some heavy meds. I hope it does not knock me out too much. I know it will will improve things in a coule of weeks when I am off the meds. I cant help but think the meds help numb me down through the past 10 months.
For the next couple of weeks I on a steroid to try to reduce the swelling in my brain, too. Plus anti-viral meds. The doctor was shocked I managed to to make it in to work with the pain from it all. The doctor was great. He wanted to put me in the hospital. I convinced him not to. I have been home/working for 10 month - so my husband is home with me today and mom is tomorrow and Wednesday. I hope I can go back to work Thusday or Friday if the steroids and anti virals and antibiotics have helped enough. Positive thinking!!!!
I kept thinking of Joe vs the Volcano when the Dr told Joe that he had a brain cloud when the doctor was telling me about the swelling in my brain.
My neck hurts from the lumbar puntcure still. They doped me up and did a cisternal something in the base of my skull to check the CSF pressure and for infections, etc. I did not get home last night until around 6. Did I say the doctor was really good?
The pressure was increased, and other stuff were off too.
Lets hope that the damage from the 10 months of swelling can be reversed.
http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/ence
http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/e
I am too tired to slay this beast today.
I am stil waiting for my RX insurance to approve the botullism part so they can do the injections in to my neck and spine.
After the botox then they will do the MRA to see the blood flow, etc.
I am waiting to see what came up on the xrays on the neck, too. I guess they need those for the injections?
I am suprised I still have any blood left in my body.
I am off to bed. I feel like death. I can feel a monster migraine from the appointment tonight. Why do hospitals and doctors that work with people with migraines ALL have flourescent lighting. That seems insane to me.
My vision is going in left yey so it is time to go to the dark safe place now.
I retained a lawyer.
I have further medical info but I am being brief in case someone work reads this. Lets just say that based on my conversatios with several doctors and lawyers it does not look good for my employer. They really should have tried to work with me harder. The couple of lawyers were salivating and looking for lots of money and damages almost seemed to be salavating. Actually it was kind of creepy. I hate lawyers and they saw easy money and a big huge pay out. Honestly that is still not the way I want to go. I still want them to just let me to work from home. I just want them to do the right thing. If they wont, though, I will do what I have to to pay the mortgage. Plus, I am starting to become frustrated and feeling rather betrayed.
Diagnosis 1
Cervical Dystonia Diagnosis
I am waiting for approval to get botox injections into the back of my neck or spine.
I have been getting much sicker lately and have been home all week very sick. Mom had to take me to the appointment. The neurologist noticed mom had dystonia of her eye. she said it was very rare but it ran in families. She started doing some strange tests, and found out I have cervical dystonia.
hhttp://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/dys
They have to get approval from both the health insurance company AND the RX company. This will be a life time this. They may or may not have been causing the migraine, but it might help. The neurologist just happened to notice I had it during my examination. She is a damned good doctor.
She also is not comfortable with the diagnosis so for and is trying to get approval for an MRA. This will be interesting because I am allergic highly - it put my into shock last time, to the IVP dye the use, but she says they can work with epinephrine and other things. She thinks it is worth it to put the medical test people through the work to have it done. She said it will take longer to schedule it because they will want the specialists and other folks there for the MRA.
Diagnosis 2
Parathyroid disease. This is genetic, so mum had hers tested, and she has it to. Hers is not as advanced. We will both have the parathyroid
biopsies.
for really boring links
http://parathyroid.com/
http://www.endocrineweb.com/parathy
http://www.endocrineweb.com/parathy
http://www.cornellsurgery.org/patie
passed the Americans with Disabilities Act Amendments Act.
The bill corrects court decisions which claims that a person with a
chronic condition cannot utilize the ADA as a defense
when one loses his or her job because of their condition.
The House passed a nearly-identical version of the bill on June 25,
2008. The House must now pass the Senate version of the bill before
it is sent to President Bush for his signature.
"I am pleased that the Senate has...passed the ADA Amendments
Act," said House Majority Leader Steny Hoyer. "This bill
will once again make America a world leader on a central test of human
rights. I expect the House to pass this bill next week, and that the
President will sign it."
I had a dream about doing a tarot reading and them badger came across and sat on the cards. The tower card was the only card I could see in the reading. This is a very significant dream because I have been very stressed over an issue at work. My work has refused my ADA case to make some simple changes for my migraines as well as disallowing me to telecommute even though they have two people in my division working from home who have NO medical need at all already. Also, I only wanted to do so occasionally if I was having problems, along with having some changes in light fixtures and higher walls or putting up a beach umbrella to cover up the flourescent lighting. They denied my case and I am in processs of an appeal. I will only say I work for one of the biggest companies in America so they can afford a few small changes.
I know the tower card should not make me panic, but so many times in the past after I have gotten this card in one of my readings, I have had my life turned upside down. Ok, so if you ask me later - months, or sometimes years later, if they change was for the better, I would have to say yes. It is just going through the chagne itself can be so hard.
Like now. This change of migraine and adjusting to this new life of never going outside in day. Having all the windows covered and never watching TV. This change has been hard, but so many good things on a peronal level are coming out of it.
ON a work level, it still sucks. I get so ill I am still blind in my left eye by the time I get get home. It am no longer recovering by sunday from the Flourescent ligthing by staying in the dark when I get home. I honestly do not believe they believe how painful my condition is or understand what I am going to. They are moving my desk to a brighter location, instead of a darker one. I think I am going to have to get a lawyer.
I am not sure what the lesson here is yet. Is the lesson of the badger? To fight until things are right? Force them to do the right thing for all employees in my position, when all others are too afraid?
Is my lesson to give up and find another career? I live in a rural area so this would be hard to supporrt my family to the same level.
I think that badger is telling me to fight the good fight because it is the right thing to do.
Thanks, badger, for giving me courage to stand up. I need pictures and statues, etc for my desk for my moments of frustration and weaknesss for you have already brought me strength. I love you, badger.
From Guilded Tarot Deck
There's no getting around this one, The Tower is not a
welcome card in a reading yet, at the same time, it does
not warrant feelings of panic or fear. The card can often
indicate an event or period of time that could be
challenging and difficult but, as is so often the case, one
disaster can often lead to a new victory.
For example, an unexpected request for divorce from a
spouse could be devastating, yet I know of people where
such an experience led to them achieving more than they
ever dreamed of because they pursued a different path as a
result. Often, such an incident creates the freedom and
space for a new and greater love to walk into your life.
Many people have experienced bankruptcy, lost their homes
and material possessions only to change tactics and create
great wealth and success. The clearing away of the old
often makes way for the new.
The life lessons we learn from the turbulence indicated by
The Tower help us to rethink and to approach our lives with
a newfound wisdom so that we don't make the same mistakes
again.
So, if The Tower appears in your reading, then there may be
something in your life that will challenge you or has
challenged you, and it will be up to you how you choose to
get over it and learn from the experience.
Sometimes The Tower may represent you as the person causing
the disruption. Perhaps you need to make choices or
decisions that are important to you but could cause
material or emotional loss. In such a situation, only you
can know whether you are prepared to pay the price.
The Tower can also serve as a warning that a certain choice
or decision could lead to disaster, such as, if you are
considering an extra-marital affair, leaving your job
without a new one to step into, that kind of thing.
Take heed when this card comes up, but don't panic or get
anxious. Consider your options and choices wisely and if
you can avoid such chaos, great! If chaos is forced upon
you, trust that however challenging it may be, you can find
a way to move forward with your life.
From Lotus Tarot
It asks do you believe it to be permenant or temporary. Well the condition is permenant, but who knows about what will be permenant or temporary. If it is temporary will they decline me? If it is permenant will they decline me? This is all very scary and confusing.
It is hard when people do not understand that when my husband accidently turned on the kitchen light when I was in there, I became so ill, I vomited and still sick this morning. You just can't explain this type of light sensitivity to someone who has not experienced it. I am really afriad they will try to adjust one or two lights above me deskt. This does not work for me. I can't walk through walmart without getting sick even with a hat, scarf and sunglasses to filter out the fourescent light. I will have to walkt to the bathroom. The break room? The cafeteria? The store? The credit union? They are supposed to make these accesible to folks with disabilities, so I guess this means replacing all these lights and the walkways in between, right? Walk from the dooor to my desk? Go from meetings from my desk. They have almost two square miles of lights - it is not affordable to repace all the bulbs. I think working from home for a couple of weeks or a month is a more reasonable option for now.
I have been doing a little research. This seems to help for some people.
http://irlen.com/index.php?id=113
They are pretty expensive, though, so I can't afford them. It is cheaper for work, though, if it actually works. The questions is, though, do they work? I hope they do. If anyone has tried them, please let me know.
Apparantly if you use the wrong color filter, though, it can make it worse. The closest diagnostician is in North Carolina. I have read on some nuero stuff that yellow sun glasses can trigger seizure and sunglasses so it does make sense. For now I am hoping it can help.
I am still dizzy and sick to my stomach a lot. The ringing in my ears is not as loud as it used to be and I don't have the audio or visual hallucinations quite as frequently as I was having. I am certainly NOT safe to be driving.
My eyeballs have been sore. They have been sore lately, though, because my vision constantly changes - blind in the left half of my left eye for one day - blurry for the left eye the next day - which is why I rarely post. I went to the neuro today and I was in severe pain for a long time from the flourescent lighting and the light outside. You would think a neuro would have seizure/migraine friendly lighting. What the hell is up with that?
Doctor keeps telling me it usually takes a couple of months to get full effects from the medication and not to be disheartened. In the mean time, though, what am I going to do. I am screwed unless my job lets me work from home for a couple of weeks while the medication starts to work. Honestly, I could work from home, another gal down the road is working from home who lives not too far from my house and does the same job I do. It is just a matter of getting them to agree to do the right thing.
Please feel free to send positive energy for the work/money situation to sort itself out.
I really want to go back to work soon. The dogs and the brother are driving me a little crazy.
Transformed Complicated Migraine
Basically transformed migraine is one that has become prolonged and chronic, almost continual at time as in my case
Complicated means the aura phase - dizzy, vertigo, confusion and memory - is prolonged from a few minutes or hours to many hours or days.
The problem is that this kind can lead to permanent brain damage and greatly increased likelihood of an actual stroke and full seizure instead of small seizure.. My inability to sleep may be what is keeping me in the migraine phase too long and triggering it so often.
"Non-restorative sleep may be involved in the migraine's transformation process," she reported in an oral presentation at the American Headache Society meeting.
Migraines aren't just another bad headache; they are intense throbbing headaches that can be further distinguished by specific symptom patterns. A basilar type migraine which is also called Bickerstaff syndrome, involves symptoms such as dizziness, in coordination, confusion, hearing changes and numbness.
Symptoms of Basilar-Type Migraine
A basilar migraine is considered a rare subtype of migraine with aura. The aura phase generally lasts for about an hour and the person may feel frightened from the dizziness and loss of control. An aura phase in a basilar migraine can be quite unusual in that the sensory disturbances are often quite severe. The headache itself that occurs, however, is generally characteristic of a typical migraine headache but may also involve an intense throbbing around the back of the head. Other symptoms experienced may involve:
Double vision
Loss of balance
Vomiting
Diarrhea
Loss of consciousness
Intense headache pain
Slurred speech
Temporary loss of vision
Basilar Artery Migraine and Epilepsy
Sometimes BAM occurs in a brain that is potentially epileptic, and that the ischemia of the attack pushes the brain over the seizure threshold. Both epilepsy and BAM have EEG changes, with the interictal EEG almost always normal in most patients with BAM (Passier et al. 1994), and it can be quite difficult to tell the two disorders apart (Caplan 1991a). The nature of the differences in EEG results and the pathology involved between epilepsy and BAM is still undergoing examination.
Sources
http://imigraine.net/bttlinks/bampa
http://www.medpagetoday.com/Neurology/M
Their concern is they are happening very frequently - if they happen to often the brain does not have time to heal between seizures and the brain could become permenantly damaged. This is why I have to avoid ALL possible triggers- even though they don't know all my triggers yet. It sucks. I can't watch tv at all. Yesterday I sorted out all the screws and nails by size for somethig to do that would not hurt me in the process. Mom brought over her pictures and I sorted them by date for her earlier this week. I alphabetized my books, cds, etc. It is craziness. I sweep a lot, too. Loud noises can triggure sometimes, so I just sweep up the dog fur.
When I get an attack, I get really bad vertigo and fall down sometimes. Not very often and I have not hurt myself or anything yet. But David does not want me to cook even, in case I drop a boiling pan of pasta if one hits me at the wrong time.
David is sweet, though. He really is darling.
Ten years from now, this will be really funny. Right?
I have called 5-6 times and my boss is not returning my calls yet which has me a bit worried.
1. When is epilepsy a disability under the ADA?
Epilepsy is a disability when it substantially limits one or more of a person's major life activities. Major life activities are basic activities that an average person can perform with little or no difficulty, such as walking, seeing, hearing, speaking, breathing, performing manual tasks, caring for oneself, learning, and working. Major life activities also include thinking, concentrating, interacting with others, reproduction, and sleeping.
Epilepsy may be a disability because of limitations that occur as the result of seizures or because of side effects or complications that can result from medications used to "control" the condition.
1. When is epilepsy a disability under the ADA?
Epilepsy is a disability when it substantially limits one or more of a person's major life activities. Major life activities are basic activities that an average person can perform with little or no difficulty, such as walking, seeing, hearing, speaking, breathing, performing manual tasks, caring for oneself, learning, and working. Major life activities also include thinking, concentrating, interacting with others, reproduction, and sleeping.
Epilepsy may be a disability because of limitations that occur as the result of seizures or because of side effects or complications that can result from medications used to "control" the condition.
Example: A court concluded that an individual who had brain surgery to control seizures, but still continued to experience two or three seizures per month, was an individual with a disability because she was substantially limited in several major life activities, such as walking, seeing, hearing, speaking, and working, while having a seizure and often was limited in caring for herself (sometimes for more than a day) following particularly severe seizures.
Example: Some individuals take drugs that control their seizures but make them drowsy, unable to concentrate, or unable to sleep. An individual who is substantially limited in major life activities such as sleeping, thinking, concentrating, or caring for himself as a result of these side effects would have a disability under the ADA.
http://www.eeoc.gov/facts/epilepsy.html